Hmmm... Where to begin.
Well, you know that whole Bipolar thing? Well, I'm hitting the depression side of it. Or it's hitting me, I can never tell. I have good days, but they're all having that "the weight of the world on my shoulders" kind of feeling. And lately I've been invigorated and life was full of all this color. And now it's all gone.
The entire point of telling you this is that I'm not entirely sure how much I'll be posting. I guess I don't really have the motivation or desire. Or maybe because school is out, I have no reason to post because I'm not looking for something to do in order to avoid school. That was ridiculously long.
I don't know. I'll see what happens.
I hope you had fun all over Europe, Jonas.
I'll read Pomponne whenever I get back on this silly site.
It's so hard to find help
these days,
when everyone's counting on me
but I'm burnt already.
Oh, darlin! I'm starting out very 'Beatle-esque' today :)
ReplyDeleteBi-Polar is one of the hardest things to have to live with-so much uncertainty inside you! One of my very best friends has it and it's hard-esp when she completely stops taking medication--I think she starts to feel she's better towards the beginning of the highs and so she stops, but-as I'm sure u know- when she does that, her hormones shift to get used to not having the meds and things go all wonky. Then, She has to starts them again and the hormones shift again. Much of her time is spent in uncertainty.
I've been thru things in life too and can speak the whole drugs, alcohol, depression language-I've been closer to the edge than makes most people comfortable. I hope you're able to keep posting even when ur all down cuz your blog has a vividness and honesty that is rare!
If you ever need to vent, just drop me a line! I'm a non-judgmental listener and a great secret keeper :)
MANY HUGS, Friend!